A cup of coffee because it’s bitter. I am too.

My life has been quite pointless lately. Work takes up most of my day. By the time I finish work, it’s too late to do much and I have no energy to do anything else either. Wake up. Go to work. Work for 7 hours. Come home. Spend a few hours doing nothing. Sleep. I like this schedule more than school. It’s less stressful. Just boring.

Regardless, I still feel stress. My mother keeps reminding me constantly to take my driving test. The more she reminds me, the less I want to do it. Even though, I clearly told her that I would get the full license by the time I finish university. She still nags at me non-stop and her nagging keeps echoing in the back of my mind so much that every single time I get a moment of silence, I hear her nagging at me again.

I’m undecided in how I want to deal with my mother from now on. I’m torn between tolerance and revealing how I really feel. Honest, I don’t think I can compromise. Right now, I’m leaning towards showing how I really feel even if it is being rude. I feel quite strongly that her ways are wrong and I blame her for me being who I am right now mostly because she has been the strongest influence in my life.

They notice the anti-social tendencies that I have, but they don’t take action. It makes me wonder if they ever noticed how depressed I am. Heh. I guess I learned from the best how to make the rest of the world believe that your life is perfect even when it’s in crumbles.

7:18pm. I wonder if I’ll be able to sleep through the night. My bed calls for me.

Isn’t it retarded how something as simple as a driving test can bother me so much?