I’m actually on vacation this whole week. It’s actually my first real long vacation for the summer. I started working on and off right after exams and after a while, started working full time. Vacation is nice, but busy and boring at the same time.

It’s rather hard for me to sit at home and just lazy around, and feel that I’ve rested. There is always something nagging me in the back of my mind that needs to be done. I can never put those things down and really enjoy myself. So it’s really surprising to me when people say that they are able to have a relaxing day just by reading a book or watching tv.

So I’ve been keeping myself busy with cosplay shopping and seeing friends. There’s another convention this weekend so it won’t be too bad in terms of keeping myself occupied. My costume for this convention is going to be a pink coverall. It’s not quite done yet, but I’ll post a picture when it is done. ^_^

I feel rather accomplished because I went to the mall yesterday and asked for a bigger size. I’m actually looking for semi-casual blazers to wear for fall/winter. You’re supposed to size according to the biggest part of you, but it’s tough accepting that, especially when that brings me into the plus sizes. The only redeeming thing is that plus sizes are a bit big for me for the most part. I’d have to get it tailored for it to fit properly. Though, I think I’m still in denial.

I really don’t think I’m heading down a good road in terms of health. I don’t always eat out and I like cooking, even with my limited skills. I feel that I’ve educated myself to the extent that I can make good food choices. However, it all goes downhill when I add a lot of bad choices in there (mostly sweets and pastries). Small amounts of bad things add up, but they’re very hard to give up altogether. Finding alternatives feel very difficult too. I really don’t know what to do or how determined I am to change this lifestyle that I have.

I’ve always had self-esteem issues with my body image. I was always the chubby kid in school (“the fat lady sings!” or so they teased *laughs*) and I never felt pretty. Things have improved immensely once I started getting a new wardrobe filled with fashionable items that fit me. It feels nice when people say that this piece looks nice or that accessory looks good. I think things have improved, but they could be better. Besides, I don’t like fighting with all the other people in Hamilton for the bigger sizes. =P

It’s true! In Toronto, it’s always the bigger sizes that are left when things go on sale. In Hamilton, you’re left with the smalls and extra-smalls when things go on sale. *laughs*

Oh, I’m not trying to say that I want to get skinny. I just think that if I continue down the road with my eating habits, there’s a very very high possibility of me getting diabetes. Not very good. Also increases a bunch of other risk factors for other diseases/complications too.