I should be very happy today. I went to all my classes (even the 8:30 am one), went to work, did my part in a group assignment and I even found a fancy shirt to wear tomorrow (PLAY! concert). The laundry’s tumbling away, my tummy is full on a veggie burger and the house is very quiet.

 Even so, I feel that I’ve driven myself into the corner again. I’ve been looking at career stuff for the past few hours. It’s so depressing. I cannot do anything with my B.Sc. (Biology) and anything that might be worth pursuing would be another 4-5 years of schooling. It’s not worth the time. I really don’t have 4 years to spend on schooling. Money can always be borrowed from the government, even though my parents are totally against it, but time cannot be borrowed like that.

 Ideally, I would like to be in a full time position with in the next 2-3 years. If I can keep that job for around 2-3 years to get some experience, then I can decide whether I want to and whether I’d be able to move permanently to be with the boy.

Of course, life is never simple like that. I really wish I believed people when they said that there’s no future in studying science (unless you’re smart enough to be a doctor/dentist/nurse). 

I know every student has these moments of panic about their future. This is just an example and even if is a little late, I’m working closely with a career counselor to help me. 

This is an exercise that she as assigned to me this week. List all the careers that you’ve considered, including childhood dreams.

  1. artist/cartoonist (up until grade 5/6): I admired anime/manga and thought it would be cool. I gave up on that dream when a close friend just picked up art and quickly surpassed me with ease. I actually had art lessons for 3-4 years.
  2. Everything from grade 7-end of high school was a blank. My goal in life at that time was to get into high school and then into university.
  3. Research and development: It’s less of a career and more of a department, but it generates the idea, ne? My goal back then was to develop new cookies, flavors of ice cream, improve confectionary items, etc. It went down the drain when I decided to take the lab job instead of transferring to Guelph’s food science program. Lots of things have come out of not going to Guelph, but I do regret it to some extent.
  4. My own pastry/coffee cosplay cafe: it’s kind of a dream to have my own business and be around things that I love: sweets and anime/manga. It’s not a very practical business around here because we lack the niche required to make it a success.
  5. Ultrasound Technician: Don’t know if I actually like it, but it’s practical. Four years, a few exams and bam! You can go start looking for jobs where you have a good chance of getting hired. 

So, what did you want to be when you were a kid? =)